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`'`Sunday, June 10, 2007`'`

[On Air : 发现真爱 - 183 Club]

Today marks the start of another phase of my life.
the magic number 21. the age every teenager yearns to be.
but when the time comes, it doesn't seem so magical afterall.
it doesn't just mean freedom.
it marks a new beginning.
it means more responsibility.
it a reminder to start seriously planning the future.
i used to envision myself being 21 when i was very young.
but the images that came to me was never clear.
and now here i am just-turned 21 and writing this post.
the past half a year has had it share of happenings.
whether it was good or bad doesn't matter anymore.
so today is just another typical day to me.
nothing special.
and like the many past months i spent time with myself.
i thought about many things.
the past. the future.
the people whom i have met.
i wonder about how my future will turn out.
what will become of me.
how i am going to face this new phase of life.
i don't know mentally & physcologically how much i have grown.
i can't judge if i changed to be a better person.
but i know that deep down in me i am still a teenager at heart.
maybe because there are still things that i should have fufill during those years but i never had the chance to.
i don't know how long i will need to take to really turn 21.
but i know someday i will and i have to.
though sometimes i might feel lost.
but i guess i will be able to handle whatever that comes my way.
and what matters most i think will be the people who will stay for a long time to come.

* Thanks for all the wishes, greetings & gift from all means. I appreciate it all very much. =)
Labels: 10th June 2007

10:24 PM

with love,
xin

=)