在别人面前的快乐只为了令别人开心一点我要找到真的快乐唯有继续装傻

`'`Monday, November 27, 2006`'`

[On Air : 自恋 - 罗志祥]

school starts late tomorrow.
that explains why i am here again at such an unearthly hour.
it the first and probably the last since the start of this semester
that i have a late monday.

Lately, i haven't been feeling too good.
it kind of an unexplainable feeling.
one moment i am feeling good.
and the next i am down in the pits again.
mopping around like a zombie.
enjoy toturing myself.
bouts of headaches.
i am turning into a mess
and the only thing that keeps me sane is music.
sounds like symptoms of depression. haha.
geez~ i gotta wake up.

i am so motivated to study right now.
i am so extremely happy. =D
my biz finance report is 3/4 completed.
i have worked out the calculations part.
which only leaves me with the theoratical analzying.
revised chapters 2 & 3 for econs.
and i have started on the 1st chapter of ITL.
on second thoughts, i might not screw up too badly after all.
more motivation to come.
i am keeping my fingers cross. =)

right, i better get to sleep.
otherwise, i will be seeing wrinkles on my face soon.
geez~ what a freaking thought. =!

“听说在250万年后，我们会在次遇到相同的人。。。我想到时的我希望能在遇见你。”

3:02 AM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Thursday, November 23, 2006`'`

[On Air : 自我催眠 - 罗志祥]

生命原来是那么憔悴。
生死原来就只差那一瞬间。
原来我害怕的不是死亡而是失去。

life is so fragile.
between life and death stands only a thin line.
someday we all come to the same ending.
a lifetime is all we have.
no fairytale exists.
we don't live happily ever after.
no one knows when.
but yes, someday we have to go.
the fear of losing can get so overwhelming at times.

2:55 AM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Sunday, November 19, 2006`'`

[ On Air : 熟能生巧 - 林俊杰]

We celebrated Eugene's birthday last week.
Seems like like yesterday that we just stepped into CTSS.
it been a great 7 years and counting.
rawk on~ =D
i shall let the photos do the talking.
Credit to Eugene for the photos.

termed the 'happy people'. =)

small screens-big heads. =X

just another shot. =p

this can really get addictive. =D

i didn't know how it turned out this way. =)))

i am so totally screwed.
and being deprived of sleep is not helping at all.
i dragged myself out of bed.
plaster a smile and drag myself to school.
this whole semester is totally screwed up.
there are still tons of unfinished work waiting to be done.
and it piling up.
i am not tired.
just drained.
so drained that even smiling seem like a task.
wadever~ i just feel so screwed up.

1:34 AM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Thursday, November 09, 2006`'`

[On Air : 北极星的眼泪- 张栋梁]

I just completed an essay due tomorrow.
what a relief. it been bugging me for days.
lessons starts late tomorrow.
so i decided to blog at such an unearthly hour.
it been a hell of a semester so far.
there's so much to completed that i don't know where to start from.
and time is running out. =(
procastination has of course been a major affecting factor in mine unable to complete assignments on time.
that's so like me. haha.
procastination is so in me that it like my shadow, that doesn't fail to follow.
projects pile in like flowing water tap.
quizes and tests queing up to be taken.
and all those i-don't-understand-the-question tutorials waiting to be done.
i really need to buck up. and start immediately.
good that all these stuff keeps me busy. which is the kind of mode that i like to be in.
but all these adding up together has been depriving me of my sleep.
deprivation of sleep is something i can't handle well.
i have been waking up much later then usual.
as late as half an hour before i leave the house.
and i end up having to go into a frantic rush trying to make it on time.

i don't watch much tv shows these days.
much less know which drama is the latest hot favourites.
but recently, with recommendations i watched wei xiao pasta.
surprisingly, this show has manage to keep me watching the consecutive episodes.
this drama is one good show.
with its comical script and creative animations.
it never fails to make me laugh.
not to mention that the lead actor has a really charming smile. =))

anyways, common test dates aren't too far away.
i have got alot of revision to be done.
and it really ALOT.
haha... i just hope i don't screw up too badly.
well, i guess that's all for now then. =D

12:08 AM

with love,
xin

=)