在别人面前的快乐只为了令别人开心一点我要找到真的快乐唯有继续装傻

`'`Monday, February 20, 2006`'`

What your Birth month means

JUNE
* Thinks far with vision
* Easily influenced by kindness
* Polite and soft-spoken
* Having lots of ideas
* Sensitive
* Active mind
* Hesitating
* Tends to delay
* Choosy and always wants the best
* Temperamental
* Funny and humorous
* Loves to joke
* Good debating skills
* Talkative
* Daydreamer
* Friendly
* Knows how to make friends
* Abiding
* Able to show character
* Easily hurt
* Prone to getting colds
* Loves to dress up
* Easily bored
* Fussy
* Seldom show emotions
* Takes time to recover when hurt
* Brand conscious
* Executive
* Stubborn
* Those who loves me are enemies
* Those who hates me are friends

how true izit?

9:21 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Thursday, February 16, 2006`'`

will you ever understand?

在安静关了灯的房间一天

躺在床上慢慢的沉淀

那一些曾热闹过的画面

你的笑脸那些不变说过的字眼

我将花生土司切片调整咖啡的杯垫

无意义的在计算时间

你离开多少年

心里面还是站在你这边

那从前一直没走远

就好像是一切粘不去的浓烟

我心甘情愿在中间

心里面还是站在你这边

那从前一直没走远

那事过境迁如果能重选

我宁愿危险一生不安全

在你身边

11:23 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Friday, February 03, 2006`'`

CNY was nice, but kinda tiring this year. more visitations. the usual stuffs of bonding and socialising with people. . some whereby you just see them like once a year.of course not missing out on some money, cards and some alcohol many questions and conversations that keeps going on. pretty good catching up with my cousins, going through childhood memories and having a good laugh. went visting with my best peepz, fun stuff going arnd to each other's house. also the visits from other people and of course more questions and comments. like from people who haven seen you for sometime, will start commenting about all the differences about the past and now. it kinda funny hearing the comparisons, and of cos the most important is to go with it and keep smiling. oh and there was this particular conversation with an aunt whom i haven seen for a few years.

A: Happy New Year!
*shakes hand & i gave back the same greeting.
A: wah! so fast, all grow up already.
*points to me
A: this one xinyi rite? so long never see you. how old already arh?
* mummy ans this questions and saes 19+ ...
A: 19 already? still look so much the same when she was young, face never change much...
*tries a smile and suceeds in a polite one.
A: look so young, veri baby-face , veri cute arh you ....
*keeps the smile on ...

WAD??? baby-face? cute? i dun have a particular liking for the word CUTE. why does everyone think i dun look 19? but then again, i never really tried explaining la. i mean what's the point? especially, to the adults ... they seem to alwayz stick to their opinion. haha. owells, might as well let it be ... ...

11:36 PM

with love,
xin

=)