在别人面前的快乐只为了令别人开心一点我要找到真的快乐唯有继续装傻

`'`Monday, July 25, 2005`'`

Mondae blues as usual. School was alright thought. Wad a day! Got caught in the rain on my way home frm school and was drenched totally. Argh....... there i go sneezing again. i can't get sick right now there's so much stuff waiting to be done. Let's hope i dun. haha. kinda enjoy being busy, maybe cuz i haf gotten use to it alreadi. But the lack of sleep still bugs me sumtimes. well, i guess tat's all for now den. Take carez everyone! :>

p/s: Xiao toro turns one month old 2dae! :=)

" When i am with you i feel free
I don't know what you do
But without you my sky will no longer be blue"

11:30 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Saturday, July 16, 2005`'`

Another week coming to an end yet again. Time reali flies, it doesn't wait for you to catch up. Having the chance to live another day, to see the sunlight every morning becomes such a significant thing tat everyday is a gift from god.

Monday start of the week. Had school as usual. Was pretty sleepy n blur cuz i reached home at 11+ the previous night. Freaking over the nearing datelines of the countless projects and an upcoming test. Stayed in school till 6pm to discuss on e business proposal ting.

Tuesday had to make it to sch by 8am. unlike the normal tuesdaes where my 1st lecture starts at 9am, nt counting Ds sessions unless being called up. Usual lectures until 3pm. Had a reali long day. Had a presentation due e next day. Reached home at nearly 1am. Was darn hungry. Ate sum bread with. It tasted too milky. horrible in short. Finalli went to bed at 2am.

Wednesday reached school abit earlier as usual. After 3 hrs of recharging, it back to real work. We were the 1st grp to present. went pretty ok. Rest of the day went by in a blur. Met up wif my best peepz after school. Had an intersting bus ride n a super sumptous buffet dinner. Did lots of catching up. Went to take a few photos, wif the stupid machine making tings difficult by snapping away 2 fast.

Thursday had the usual lectures. Feeling sleepy n extremely restless. Wishing 4 million countless times tat i was home in the comfort n warmth of my bed. Frantic last minute preparation for the next day's ECS ca. Hit the sack at 2am.

Friday finalli came. Got over the test. Attended a talk after school. More or less called it a day. Talked on the phone until 4am before hitting the bed.

The talk until 4am. The sentimental topics. I was asked to summarise the song. Wad it meant. The feelings were there. Was that how i felt now? or was it how i felt den? Complicating. I will put this at rest for the time being... ...

" One day you'll ask me, "which is more important to you, me or your life" I'll say, "My life" and you'll go and leave me with out knowing that you are my life... "

11:45 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Saturday, July 09, 2005`'`

Jay chou's- Yi Lu Xiang Bei

Here's the English Translation for the song:

The world from the rear view mirror becomes further and further away as if saying goodbye
You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful
I use my eyes to pursue you, yet I hear your tears
Outside the car window is my missed opportunity
Your position and mine is separated by tears
The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window

I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again
The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances

I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret
I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings

The lingering feeling...strong at times.... a past unknown to anyone except oneself... might haf meant sumting. Letting go... a distant memory... those were the past. Let's make a change for the world... to make tomorrow a better day......

11:59 PM

with love,
xin

=)

Well, i met up wif Lh todae aft sch ended. We went to eat. It was great. We seldom got the time to meet up nwadays. [ Thanx for travelling all the way to the east to meet me & for the superb time we share. Take good care of yourself ya! :D]. I feel weird, down. Like the last time. Maybe it cuz i feel tired lately or i got too much in my mind. It getting confusing. I thot with all tat workload, i will probably be so dead tired everyday tat i wun haf the time to feel down or tink too much abt other stuff other den school. I alwayz tell people to cheer up, to look on the positive side. But i do understand how it feels like to be a victim of this sadistic emotional thing tat goes on inside you. It hard i know. Trying so hard & desperately to get better and yet something is pulling you back. Listening to the song on this blog, it kind of brought me back some memories. The song sounds sad, but the lyrics are solid meaningful. Maybe, it might haf meant sumting to me somewhere back in the past. But wadever tat happened in the past should be let go. Sch's going tough, so i guess i am gonna work myself real hard. Hope to be back soon. Take carez everyone out there. :)

我一路向北离开有你的季节
wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie

你说你好累已无法再爱上谁
ni shuo ni hao lei wu fa zai ai shang shui

风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对
feng zai shan lu chui guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui

细数惭愧我伤你几回
xi su can kui wo shang ni ji hui

p/s: I have uploaded the full version song. Thanx to vinz! :=)

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12:22 AM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Tuesday, July 05, 2005`'`

Hey peepz... here's a short one. Had a chance to use the com to upload some proj stuff, so pop by to see how's everyone doing. Hope everyone is doing great. However bad things turn out. Rmb: Tomorrow is another new day. Start afresh and make the best of it. Anyway,i juz uploaded this new song by jay chou. it frm the movie initial d. isn't in the best quality. so i will juz haf to do wif this for the time being. ok, will end here for now. Till den, everybody out there haf a great week. Take carez :D

p/s: Good to know tat u r trying hard to get on, dun give up. Keep on going ya! Stay happy! Till the next time we race again. [AE86 vs FC] :=>.

11:00 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Sunday, July 03, 2005`'`

i m back aft a week. Went to watch initial D wif lin & siti ytd. The movie is superbly nice. But it more of a comedy movie den an action one. The effects are reali good. watching it in the cinema is totally dif frm watching it on vcd. Jay chou's acting is reali good, xcept tat he can't cry. haha. The racing cars in the movie is reali stunning, even the name given to the cars are cool. Met up wif fristin 2 yesterdae to pass her sum stuff. it been sumtime since we last met up. Siti had 2 go home aft e movie cuz her family was going out for a feast. So me & lin walked arnd e pasam malam & after tat went wif her to eat. we intentionally missed the train twice & talked. Aniwae, my week at sch was ok, xcept tat more projects & CAs coming up. Nt much time to come arnd here nwadays.... so, i m taking this chance to tell everyone to take care! Stay happy! Haf a nice week ahead! :D

5:48 AM

with love,
xin

=)