在别人面前的快乐只为了令别人开心一点我要找到真的快乐唯有继续装傻

`'`Sunday, November 27, 2005`'`

i had my first keyboard lesson todae. i had been looking forward to it. it has been a long time i have waited and i finalli had the time to pursure it. i learned how to read the notes. play the C & G7 keys. i tink i cld play a simple song wif tat alreadi. my teacher spoke to me abt music and told about how various instruments work. i learnt sumting frm him todae tat music actualli comes with the feel. it abt feeling as u play. towards the end of the lesson he played two pieces on the organ. the two pieces are Mr Lonely and Jay Chou's An Jing. i was impressed. Nw, i guess i want to learnt the organ too. nt now. but it in my plans. ok, it monday tmr and tat means work. signing off. :)

11:00 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Thursday, November 24, 2005`'`

went for treatment todae. kind of wear me off. prays it doesn't get worst. maybe i will go sleep in awhile.

10:49 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Tuesday, November 22, 2005`'`

my leg is in extreme pain. argh! treatment on thursday . pls don't make it worst.

i rmb an advise from someone.

someone: Don't fall any deeper. Becareful.
me: i know what i am doing.
someone: i thought i knew what i was doing too.
me: ok, i know what you mean.
someone: i really hope you know.
me: yeah, i will keep that in mind.

i am not falling any deeper and i won't. :) yes, sure. pretty much sure. isn't that good ? hm ... somtimes it better somethings stay simple. just like .......... this. yes, this. thank you. ;>

10:23 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Sunday, November 20, 2005`'`

End of hols. it had been a pretty good hols. tmr will be the 1st day of my attachment. new start, new things to learnt. hopefully, it going to be a good time. learning new stuffs and all. this week well... besides meeting up with frens and rotting at home. it been a pretty confusing week. i never realised sumtings took me so hard to notice. Frm now, i will make more effort to take notice of people around me. And i hope i dun make the same mistake again.

~What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?~

9:42 PM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Saturday, November 19, 2005`'`

Hm ... negligence. It happens doesn't it? always when you aren't aware of it. creeping in quietly. no signs. no warning. It my fault for not noticing. Becoz i was too involved in sumting else. too involved in my own life. for assuming everything was alright. when i what never noticed was the hidden fear of speaking up, the loneliness behind the smiling face, the visible stress of coping in current surroundings. The help signal was was shinning so brightly. yet i was blind to it. The failure to take note of this .... . if i could turn back time i will take more effort to look around me. there are so many ifs in life ... but never once did any come true. i hope i get this right.

~Sumtimes i wish i can go to sleep and never wake up~

1:03 AM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Wednesday, November 16, 2005`'`

" I am learning to go to sleep by myself .
maybe the pain will be lessen.
I keep thinking so much that i end up losing sleep.
I lie in the room without you.
And feel more lonely then ever.
Slowly, i go to sleep by myself.
Knowing it wouldn't be what it used to be."

3:56 AM

with love,
xin

=)

`'`Monday, November 14, 2005`'`

A few pics i haf taken the past few days. i m back home and still adjusting. will update n post the pics taken during the trip ...

Eugene's Birthdae

Hehez... welcome to club 19. Hope that you will be successful in whatever you do. And remember to stay healthy and happy alwayz! Friends for life ! :)

"The 4 car racers"

"Perfect shot"

"Guess where we placed the camera? "

"hm.... we saw sumting at the other side" :)

Exclusive Pic of the day

" My fren send this to me... and i think it looked pretty nice... so here it is..." :)

11:28 PM

with love,
xin

=)