在别人面前的快乐只为了令别人开心一点我要找到真的快乐唯有继续装傻

`'`Tuesday, May 01, 2007`'`

[On Air : 我想要说-蔡旻佑]

I don't usually blog on monday nights.
but since today is a public holiday.
thought i will just write abit.
just as well since i just got home.
2L01's gathering was good.
i will probably post more about it when i get the photos.

Does spilling your guts out make a person feel a whole lot better?
i do wonder about that.
people tell me it an effective way of healing.
that it emotionally & mentally healthier to pour then to keep.
truthfully, i never knew how it actually feels like.
the feeling of pouring out my soul out to someone else was non-existent in my world.
i was strongly encouraged many a times.
but i never did take that first step.
yet at times i could feel this strong ''curosity" in me.
to know how it felt like after pouring out my soul.
people wondered why i am like that.
it usually down to factors like they were untrustable or i am just plain stubborn.
those actaully won't the reasons.
i grew up this way. never opening up much to people.
no one knows about my inside world.
there's this part of me that was never known.
and it will probably stay like this through my life.
and for life i will keep wondering how it actually feels like.

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1:34 AM

with love,
xin

=)